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| Pain this is a digital painting by me |
NO, really, the question is, how much pain am I WILLING to take?
It is 11:27 AM, I have not had breakfast because I've been sitting on
the heating pad. Little by little, I've been doing my exercises. I
have to stop in the middle sometimes and seek relief--a hot washcloth
applied directly to my anus.
I finally decided I needed to eat and went downstairs to make
breakfast. I laid out the pan and get out eggs and vegetables, but
the pain was too much for me. I am back up on the heating pad,
without having actually started breakfast.
The pain was too much. (I am at my lowest weight in several years.
This is a good thing, but the pain and hunger are not.)
I have become an invaid. I can't go anywhere, do anything. I am
canceling appointments, classes, activities. I feel sad.
