Set-back

Dire Wolf

I’ve pooped twice, and the second time was bad!  I was literally jumping around, could not sit down.  It’s definitely worse today than it has been all week—more bleeding, more pain.  It seemed to be getting incrementally better day-by-day this week—in very small increments.  Today, I had a setback, a backslide.  I’m sitting now, but have done very little sitting today.  Dunno how long I can stay sitting.  I’m afraid to try to walk outdoors.  I was going to try to shower today, but I can’t unless the pain subsides. Ow it hurts.  Wahn!

It took 25 minutes t write this note because I was in too much pain to sit down long enough to even write a sentence at once.

I was feeling a little better.  I tried not to get my hopes up, but it's really hard to not wish and hope that I am getting BETTER.  Now my hopes are dashed again.  I am very sad.