I walked to the library yesterday, after five in the afternoon. I only pooped once yesterday, early in the morning, and by 5, the pain, while still present, had subsided to the point where I could walk, with two ibuprofens. (The day before, I pooped 3 times--awful! 
) (It felt as if someone was pinching me--hard-down there-with every step.) When I got there, I sat on the wall in the sun and the heat of the sun-warmed wall soothed my butt for the walk home.
Keith is fasting today for his colonoscopy tomorrow mornings and I am worrying terribly about the pain of my being there--I am required to be there. My mornings are torture.
Today I am going to the specialist--it is NOT the same doctor I went to 2 1/2 weeks ago. That doctor, my GP, gave me NO instructions, other than to take the suppositories and a stool softener. She said to take them for 15 days unless I had a relapse--I'm still taking them--I didn't have a relapse because I didn't get better. OH, and she also said not to push when I defecate. Impossible. If I feel a poop coming on, and sit on the toilet, it moves into my rectum, which hurts like mad, and then hangs out there. It sits there and sits and there and sits there and doesn't come out until suddenly I can't help pushing. I've really tried hard not to push, but it NEVER works. The poop won't come until I do. I've tried waiting 15 or 20 minutes. If I wait too long, it retracts back up inside and then 5 minutes later, I have to go again. Meanwhile, I had 20 minutes of pain. I have pain all day, but the pain of pooping is worse, a lot worse.
But I have a whole BUNCH of additional questions. I am wondering, for example, of the GP gave me the same DOSAGE as Barbe gave me last time (2 1/2 years ago, or whenever it was.)
This is painful, I am sitting on a heating pad which only partly relieves the pain. For the ten minutes after I pooped, I was crying.
But THAT last time was worse, verging on unbearable. JUST terrible pain. I don't want to go there again.
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